Author Archives: Terrilox

The Years Are Short But the Days Are Long. Happy Birthday.

When I think about my birthday, this picture is etched in my mind. For some reason I remember everything about it. The bundt cake my Mom made. The taste of the ice tea. Mawmaw. Bob. Kathie. Dingo. It was an

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For the Love of My Beam

I just finished my first Jen Hatmaker book — For the Love.  Now for those of you that know I am a jewish convert, you’re probably thinking for the love (just so you know, I will overuse this phrase throughout this

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Dear Jackson and James … You’re TWO.

Dear Jackson and James — I can’t believe it’s been just over two years since the day I was able to hold each of you for the first time — on your BIRTHday.  I remember that day like it was

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Dear Terry at 46 — Life Is Not a Spin Cycle

Dear Terry at 46 ~ It’s your 85-year old self here.  I was reflecting today on our life and my mind wandered back to our 46th birthday.  I remember how you’re feeling.   Really I do.  I know it well.  Too

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Keep Calm and Stay Curious

“James, will you hold Mama’s hand?” “Na,” you said, as you casually brushed my hand away and independently strutted past the White House. “James, will you hold Hilda’s hand?” “Na,” even your Hilda was rejected by the strong will of

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Dear Jackson and James: Keep Stumbling

Dear Jackson and James: Every time I sit to write a letter I think to myself — or perhaps out loud … often it is out loud because I am generally alone when I write these letters and I like

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Month 17.5: Dear James and Jackson …

Dear James and Jackson: I can’t believe that you are almost eighteen months old.  I was going to wait until you turned 18-months old to write the next letter — but something happened over the past few days I needed

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Month 16: Dear Jackson and James

Dear Jackson and James: I really can’t believe you’re 16 months old today.  It’s gone so fast, just one year ago today you looked like this: On this 16th day of January in the year 2015 — your official 16

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Pinterest Project 1: Office Makeover

Life is not just about what happens to you, it’s about how you happen to life. Having a vision I am accountable to is everything for me.

My practical side can easily push the dreamer to the curb, until one morning (like today) you wake up and go into your office, stand in the doorway and cry. Continue reading

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Shoot Out 2015: Week One

I was on Pinterest last night and came upon a quote … “Nothing Will Make You Feel Better Except Doing the Work.”  THIS should be my motto for the year.  From where I sit right now, truer words were never

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What Kathie Taught Me.

  Dear Kathie ~ I can’t think about some of the very best parts of my childhood and not think about you.  You were present in so many moments and memories.  I would not be the person I am today

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Mission 2015. Use It. Love It. Or Lose It.

We drank nothing … except a mug of hot tea.  The meal was, of course, Chicken n’ Dumplings.  We rang in the new year in front of the television.  It was rather pathetic, especially since I fell asleep at roughly

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Traveling With Dumplings (toddlers)

The boys and I arrived back at LAX one week ago tonight.  Somehow I had managed to get them both asleep somewhere over Lubbock. Back on December 1st I went to the mat for four days in a row and then I

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60 More Days On the Mat: Clarity

When I was a kid I took ballet classes at CATS.  One of our favorite things to ask for (especially on a cold, rainy night) was a stretch class.  I remember begging the teachers for this class and always wishing

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60 More Days On the Mat: Dear J & J

Dear Jackson and James: Today you woke up at 5:45 a.m.  Why?  I know I shouldn’t complain.  I have two 14.5 month old toddlers that generally sleep on the same schedule.  You both sleep through the night.  You both smile more

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60 More Days On the Mat: What!?!

It was just over two years ago the weekend before Thanksgiving when I went on a yoga retreat and wrote this and then on Thanksgiving Day I wrote this — and then the Monday night after Thanksgiving I wrote my first

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What Lies In the Stillness

I. Love. Fall.  Terry gets her groove back.  Even as a child I always felt like a new person the day I could wear my first sweater.  My whole outlook on life changed.  (Here in Cali, I have yet to

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Happy Birthday, Dumplings!

Dear Jackson and James: I wish I could say that I wrote this post on your birthday — September 16th.  I did not.  I wish I could say you had perfectly up to date baby books, frame worthy pictures from

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The Grace of a Butterfly

Today I really have no time to write, so this will be a short post, unless I start rambling — then it could be a long post. Just a few moments ago I found myself sitting outside, relishing my eight

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Dear Jackson: The Letter.

Dear Jackson: I am typing this – your “official” ten-month letter — on a plane from DFW to LGA. You turned seven months old and we suddenly became the jet-setting Wilcox’s. I did not exactly plan it this way.  It just

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Dear Selma: Shabbat Shalom

Dear Selma — It’s been almost two months since our last coherent conversation.  For some reason, even though I knew the day would come when I would feel your absence  — there was a part of me that truly believed your ability

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Dear James: Seven Months and Counting

Dear James: You and your brother both – in my humble opinion – could turn the world on with your smiles.  One thing is for certain, you turn my world on with smiles and coos and all sorts of exploratory

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I Wish I Had Thought Of It …

A few days ago I read a blog by my friend, Tonilyn Hornung titled, Goodnight, Breast Pump. Before I had even read the actual blog, I immediately said to myself — boy, I wish I had thought of that.  But

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44 Things You May Not Know About Me

I never do these on Facebook, but I thought the perfect place to write 44 bits of useless of useless information about myself would be on my own blog.  I’ll be honest, now that I actually have a little more

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Dear James and Jackson: No Explanation Needed

Dear James and Jackson: I actually began your six month letters as “Dear James” and “Dear Jackson”, but after a rather telling outing yesterday afternoon with just the three of us, I opted for one final “joint” letter.  Please forgive

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